I was born in Houston, TX and raised in Indianapolis, IN. Growing up on the country side of town, I have always enjoyed a simpler lifestyle. We weren’t super flashy, didn’t have a whole lot around us, and most of us were family in one way or another. The Southside of Nap was definitely a world of difference from where I always found myself, the Far Eastside.
I ran adjacent to the streets, while trying to keep up with my Mommy (IYKYK), in search of family, home, and love. I eventually found myself the direct product of my environment(s): lost, militant, rage suppressed, sexually deviant, addicted, and mentally unstable.
As I set out to heal my mind, body and spirit from these things, I asked myself the billion dollar question: What is life about, what’s the point?
The answer:
This mantra saved my life. For the longest time I struggled with being scared of my mind. I was scared of ending up just like my Mommy. Yet, poor coping skills with life’s cycles led to a 10 year battle with addiction and diagnosed Bipolar II Disorder & PTSD.
Fall/Winter 2016, I quit everything cold turkey. On May 14, 2017, I fully committed to my healing in the presence of The Most Divine and Mommy. May 15th, I was reborn. Little did I know that I was embarking on a journey to heal myself and to help others to heal themselves. Read my full manifesto here.
In discovering these recurring themes, I slowly began to recover my LIFE. I worked intentionally to better understand myself and to take accountability and responsibility for the choices I made in regards to each of these respectively. Facing myself and owning my bullshit was the hardest thing I’ve done. That and watching my mom transition from Earthside (more about that later though).
Even in my recovery journey, I’ve struggled with the duality of my personhood and who/what everyone else feels or thinks I should be.
After years of code switching and outright faking the funk, I decided that I was ready to recover from surviving a life of pressure to live a life of purpose.
And as I share my story, I hope to inspire others to do the same. [Learn more]